Thoughts I had whilst writing this blog post

I decide that I wanted to write a blog post today, and didn't really have much interesting to say, and it occurred to me that I could just write down whatever thoughts I was having and that that would be fairly quick and easy.

10 seconds per bullet

• My leg is jiggling

• Hmmm ok that's not a lot of time

• What was that interesting thing I was thinking about earlier?

• Ok there's definitely some thoughts I didn't catch then.

• Fuck.

• Ok that was pretty blank

• Leg is jiggling again. I'm sure I had more interesting thoughts earlier

• Leg jiggling

• blank

• This is surprisingly quiet

• Are your thoughts as verbal as you think they are

• Ok that seemed like not what you were thinking about.

• Maybe you messed up the timing of the writing

• This might be easier if you were transcribing something.
  

[break]

• blank

• blank

• there was definitely a thought there that you missed

• maybe you should do this with a longer timer

• that thing that just happened on your screen was annoying

• is this stressful? I'm not sure

• It seems like your thoughts kind of happen in fits and bursts

• like a wave. wow you are poetic. also that's not how a wave works

• Seems like what you're writing down is more like communicating than thinking

• blank?

• haha waves

• leg is jiggling again

• i'm hungry

15 seconds per bullet

• I thought I'd have some more interesting things going on in my head

• hmmm i guess it's pretty hard to think

• and write with this timer thing going on at the same time

• what if you try and remember what you were thinking about

• leg jiggling

• itchy ear.

• does itchy ear count as a thought? it's like where your attention was but it's not like a thought

• ok that previous thing you wrote probably wasn't how it actually happened in your head

• it didn't have that consecutive structure it was more like instantaneous

• yeeesh. how long do thoughts take

• Does yeesh count as a thought

• seems like they are kind of instantaneous

• like maybe a tenth of a second

[break]

• itchy ear again. can't itch because then won't be able to type

• yeesh. michael scott.

• ok. is yeesh actually a thought tho

• doesn't seem like it has any cognitive content

• it's more like a noise. but maybe without any of the auidotry stuff

• beep beep beep

• moving my jaw

• leg jiggling

• i'm not sure leg jiggling counts as a thought, it's more just where your attention is

• ok let's stop counting leg jiggling as a thought.

• ok now that's a real thought. or maybe it's a decision.

• are decisions thoughts?

• ok now im thinking about leg jiggling but i'm not allowed to write about it

• you just reported yourself having a thought.. but that wasn't the content of the thought

• it's annoying how I

• refer to myself both in the second person and first person

• blank

• waitingyness

• so waitingyness doesn't seem like a thought either

• it's like maybe an emotion. at best.

• so thoughts have to be verbal?

• yeh good question

• do thoughts come with question marks?

• I guess that one did

• right but maybe there's the

• thought and then there's some separate feeling of uncertainty about

• the thought which means you get to add a question mark but

• actually fuark i'm out of time

• i don't care i'm gonna keep going

• hmmm... maybe I don't need a timer

• fuark there was something interesting i was thinking about just then.

• I guess I can just look back at my notes

No time limit

• Ok so let's see how it works if you don't use a timer

• shit you just had about four thoughts there

• should you go back and write them all down

• that feels like remembering rather than thinking

• hmmm it seems like a lot of what i'm spending my time on is putting the thoughts to words

• i wonder if there is a better way of doing that like faster

• ok but you didn't think 'i wonder' you just wondered

• seems like you can't edit it now that would be cheating

• your mouth is kind of gurning

• yeesh...

• why does my head occassionally make a michael scott yeesh thing

• it seems like it's become the default thing where my thoughts run out of steam

• so does the writing the thought down change the thought

• wow that is a very insightful question

• now i'm worried that if someone reads this they won't realise sarcasm

• yeesh

• ok yeh why does my head do that

• leg jiggling is back

• ok that does count as a thought maybe?

• because your were kind of noticing the fact that it's back rather than just paying attention to your leg jiggling

• it's always the right leg that is jiggling. huh

• what a world

• have i run out of thoughts

• nah you got loads

• hmmmm i am a bit tired though

• individuation

• thats a nice word it feels very intellectual

• ok but interestingly it does seem like thoughts are kind of discrete

• but when you're meditating or someshit they seem more to blend in to each other

• maybe discreteness is an artefact of writing down in bullet points

• artefact is a nice word as well

• does it have an i in it though

• ok now you're looking somewhere else

• where were you again

• hmmmm... yes remembering

• i guess it's not quite remembering more like putting out feelers for a memory

• ok yeh it is actually quite difficult to maintain a train of thought and write it down at the same time

• shit my hands haven't left the keyboard in a while

• am i bored now

• leg jiggling pretty rapid

• ok yeh lets stop

• ok it kind of seems like you made a decision there but you haven't actually stopped

• hmmm sure wittgenstein had some things to say about this

• probs what a legend

• ok so are you going to stop then

• that definitely felt like a question and not a decision

• right

• i wonder if i'll be trapped writing down my thoughts forever

• probably not letsbehonest

[break]

• ok i'm back

• fuark what was i thinking about again

• hmmm do you actually swear in your head

• ok now your waiting

• it seems like your on the cusp of having a thought but you're not actually having one

• in what way are thoughts verbal

• it's been a while since i wrote something

• ok that one was it verbal

• i can't remember it's too long ago

• let's wait for another one

• ok you just had a proto thought which didn't seems like it was verbal

• and then the thought about the proto thought definitely contained the word proto thought and some sort of noticing that the proto thought thought was as a result at least partly verbal

• and it seemed like the rest of the sentence wasn't verbal just the proto thought bit

• could you have had the thought without the phrase proto thought or then wouldn't it count

• ok yeh a nap would be nice

• mmmm

• feels a bit naughty though

• maybe i should do something more productive

• unclear if this is productive

• maybe i want to read in bed

• coffee

• you are a weirdo

• weird how i'm calling myself a weirdo but it definitely seems appropriate to write it as you are a weirdo than i am a weirdo

• ok lets have a break maybe nap